I’m going to be completely honest with you guys.
I have zero
desire to write this blog.
In fact, it’s taken me three nights just to get this
far. The thing is, I really don’t think there is anything that has to be “announced”.
Yes, I’ll be back in the bleachers for another season. But it’s not because I’ve
improved my situation at all from my last
blog. In fact, I’m
essentially coming back because I couldn’t find another job.
I’ve always been honest with you guys, because without you
there would be no me (cliché I know, but really appropriate). My whole
business/persona revolves around “being a fan” and I’ve always counted on your
advice, support and encouragement. In a way writing these blogs is somewhat
cathartic (and way cheaper than a therapist). So, let me get a whole bunch of
stuff out of the way and then we can all get back to making a ton of noise in
the bleachers.
To say this was a rough winter would be understatement of
the century. Looking for a job S-U-C-K-S! I know that it’s rough out there for
a lot of people, and I certainly sympathize with each and every one of you. For
my particular situation, I found it especially difficult. I feel I am one of
those people that can work well in just about any job. When it came down to “what
I want to do” it was an impossible question to answer because all I ever really wanted to do was take the
Bleacher Creatures to the next level. Everything else seemed to me like
settling.
That’s not to say I was inundated with offers. In fact, it
was quite the contrary. I sent out resumes daily for the better part of 3
months, and did not get ONE interview. For a while I had no direction (still
not sure that I do) and just sent out a ton of resumes for any job that seemed
remotely interesting. Then I focused on two things I’m good at (sales and event
planning) and concentrated on those.
Since the middle of February I’ve had one reply, which was a request for
salary history. That’s been about it.
About the middle of March is when I knew I was pretty much
out of options and that I had to return to the Bronx. I have my heart and soul
poured into a tiny tee shirt company and as much as I would love a situation in
which I can move on, it’s just not feasible. I simply need to work and though it may be unsatisfying professionally at
the moment, it is my job.
If you read my last
blog (and seriously,
if you haven’t, none of this probably makes any sense) my biggest concern with
what I do is the inconsistency. Standing in the rain to sell tee shirts is not
exactly what I aspire to do with my life. There has been little change to that
aspect over this winter, and in a way that troubles me. It’s making me
not look forward to returning, even though I know it is what it is.
I can’t control the weather (yet) or whether the Yankees win or lose and I just
have to deal with that side effect to my business.
This season, I plan to focus on something that I can
control, and that is my exposure within the market and the growth of my
business. I’d like to concentrate on
growing my fan base, and reaching out to more hardcore Yankee fans. There will
be some great contests and charity events this coming season, and I hope to get
many of my fellow Creatures involved.
I’m also really happy to announce my continued partnership
with TiqIQ.com. Without their support, there is absolutely no way I would be
able to return this year. For those of you that are not aware, TiqIQ is an
event ticket aggregator that tracks prices and individual ticket listings in
the dynamically changing ticket market. They
are an essential shopping tool for anyone purchasing tickets on the secondary
market for all events, not just baseball. In addition to bringing you the best
deals on Yankee tickets, there will be contests and giveaways throughout the
season. There are a few other things being planned, but I’ll have to leave some
surprises.
The last thing to address is the hardest, and I think in the
end that’s really why I didn’t want to sit down and write this blog. There has
been zero development with my relationship with the Yankees, and that is what
keeps me up at night more than anything about returning. There was no
communication at all over the winter with either the team or the network. Of
all of my attempts at contact, I got one computer generated form letter from HR about “keeping my
resume on file”. Not one person in the entire organization felt it remotely prudent
to reach out in any capacity to simply talk to me.
A good friend gave me a great analogy recently. It’s like
the move “A Bronx Tale”, when a young Calogero meets Sonny for the first time.
Little C is upset at Bill Mazeroski for making Mickey Mantle cry. Sonny says to
the boy:
“Mickey Mantle makes $100,000 a year. How much
money does your father make? (I don’t know) You don’t know? If your father needs money to pay the rent,
go ask Mickey Mantle. See what happens. Mickey Mantle don't care about you. Why care about him?”
For some reason, I can’t get that quote
out of my head.
So why do I care? Or,
better yet, how do I go back to caring? I’m still not quite sure about that. I’ll
always love baseball, and I’ll always love the Yankees (even if I don’t feel
the love in return). My passion for the game, as it exists in my head at this
moment, is certainly different that what I know exists in my heart. I am
confident (ok, maybe not confident, maybe just hoping) that once I get back to
the Bronx some of those emotions will change. They’ll have to change, or I just don’t think
it will work anymore.
Though, in the end, I know when I get back to 203 and see so
many of my old friends, it’ll be hard not to be fired up. And in a way, it kind
of brings me back full circle. I started sitting in the bleachers back in 1998
because it felt good to get up on a bench and yell. Nothing felt more exhilarating
after a long day of work. It was the ultimate stress reliever. I think on
opening day this year, I have a whole winter’s worth of stress that I need to
get out.
As for the rest of the summer, I am once again going to
count on the fans to help me along. I get a lot of inspiration from the passionate
people that I meet day to day, and I really think that you guys are going to be
the thing to help me care again. Excitement is contagious and there is no better
example of that than in 203.
Finally, I really do want to sincerely thank all of the
folks who reached out over the winter to check in or to ask about my return. As
a small business owner, I am grateful to have such amazing customers. As a
fellow Yankee fan, I’m grateful for having such an amazing second family. And
of course, I have to thank my real family, for putting up with me at home all
winter and for having faith in one more try. This IS the “do or die trying”
year. There is no question about that. In a way, this feels like my second
chance, and I really have to make the most of it this year.
Thanks again for riding along, and I hope to see you all in
the Bronx this summer.
